I am looking for a place to express myself, a reminder, if you will of what I am working towards. So a Blog is my answer.
The past year has been one of ups and downs an extreme roller coaster ride for sure. From living on my own, living with random roommates, moving apartments, starting to go to church, getting married, starting and leaving a few jobs, moving to North Carolina, moving to a new church, starting and leaving another job, going through two miscarriages, buying two cars, buying a house, fixing up the house, being a part of a church start, starting a young adult group at our home... I am sure I missed a few things in that list, but the point is life has been crazy. The thing I have realized over the past few weeks of contemplation and prayer, is that I have not trusted God nearly enough through the struggles of this time. I have been too worried about what the future is going be like and being disappointed that things I really wanted to happen, didn't happen; rather than figuring out what God has for me today and this minute.
I started praying for guidance in this area, for what my "job" so to speak, is right now. My answer came, at least part of it, and honestly I never though I would ever be comfortable with the idea. I have been asked to do some artwork pieces for my church. So it will start there. I hope to be able to continue with it and start to enjoy it again. I am having to work past my fear of an audience and that is going to be interesting.
The past year has been one of ups and downs an extreme roller coaster ride for sure. From living on my own, living with random roommates, moving apartments, starting to go to church, getting married, starting and leaving a few jobs, moving to North Carolina, moving to a new church, starting and leaving another job, going through two miscarriages, buying two cars, buying a house, fixing up the house, being a part of a church start, starting a young adult group at our home... I am sure I missed a few things in that list, but the point is life has been crazy. The thing I have realized over the past few weeks of contemplation and prayer, is that I have not trusted God nearly enough through the struggles of this time. I have been too worried about what the future is going be like and being disappointed that things I really wanted to happen, didn't happen; rather than figuring out what God has for me today and this minute.
I started praying for guidance in this area, for what my "job" so to speak, is right now. My answer came, at least part of it, and honestly I never though I would ever be comfortable with the idea. I have been asked to do some artwork pieces for my church. So it will start there. I hope to be able to continue with it and start to enjoy it again. I am having to work past my fear of an audience and that is going to be interesting.
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